Another experience in my life! Today I realise a lot of things,probably...I am in a very down mood and feel like totally a loser! I resigned from my workplace two weeks ago and after I went to Rome,I felt I was at the top of my life until today, where I fall into deepest hole! After I resigned,I found another job but when I confirmed with new employer,I had to wait for 2 weeks. Then,she told me I have to wait 2 more weeks after I came back from Rome. I still in the mood,so,I don't really care.
I called my mom and she totally furios about this and demanded me to find a new job immediately. I called for few job but some of them thought I don't have enough experience and said will call back, but that call ended at the night I call. Last night I called to a place named Torquay and we talked happily,at last, we have a deal that I went there today to work. I bought train ticket and planned for everything today.
This morning,when I had last breakfast with my collegue, a text arrived. Manager at Torquay text me,told me that I am not suitable to work there because Martin and Kiki worked there. I totally lost of way, I din't remember this two people until I called that manager. Both of them worked at the workplace I resigned and the husband was fired because he was not capable,some more, thought he was so capable and did not want to listen to others. At last,both of them also leave. But as I worked as manager at here,I have to control them and when they did nonsense thing,I get mad and directly complaint to boss. Ahah..this is my first mistake that I learned from experience. They took it as backstabbing and I was the person that make them fired. But they never think why they are fired.
This afternoon,they text me!" Fuck yourself! U should know u arenot a nice person.of course u have to lose any job!hahaha" This was the content of their text. I reply "haha..childish". Do I need to reply more? I don't think so. They just have to take care themselves as if not,they will lose the job again. After that text,I was so furious and my mind is so mess up. I let my collegue to read that text and we started a discussion about them,about my job. I was scare as my mom told me not to change job this year because I got a lot of "xiao ren" (people that give trouble and obstruct me).
I was convinced what I will do after I resigned but at that moment, I freaked out and totally lose my way and thinking. Where is my logical thinking? Then,after persuaded by my collegues, I told my boss that I wanted to stay to work at this place again. Then,I kept on complaining to my best friend and talking about negative feeling. I felt sad and fed up after decided that I would stay back. Well,this showed that I hate this job so much but I made my choice. I tried to blame my mom,blame the new employer that delays shop opening day. But it is me that making the choice, and I make my choice. There is no one to blame,except myself!
I am not a person that have a strong belief on myself, that's why I let myself be in this kind of situation. Besides,I am too lenient to employer and at last causing myself terrible ending. I was easily persuaded and influenced by people, that is why I was a failure. I deserved this. I would learn from this and so do with anyone that read my blog. Next time, do not be so brave, complaining about others infront of them,where they can listened anytime. Second, don't resign if you don't have back up. Found a new job,then resign,don't be lenient to employer,scare they can't find employee as they will. Third, the world is so small that you will meet anyone again,so,for both of them,don't let me meet you two again. I promise myself I will become stronger than now and I definitely won't forgive anyone that treat me bad! Remember,this world is small!
