Eat Pray Love
This movie was out for quite a long time. I saw its review and almost everyone gave quite a good comment about it. I did not bother much as I am not really attracted to it. Today, finally I watch it and this bring me back to this blog. I tried to end this blog because it is with me all along these years, in which everything happen and the most heart broken thing happen to me. But today I came back here because I need to face myself, face my inner fear.
I had left United Kingdom for more than half year, I went to China, and then now I am here, in Singapore. I left United Kingdom with broken heart and tried to get over everything by coming back here. But I bring all those broken heart back to Asia. It is with me, no matter where I go because I haven't let it go. I miss him sometimes, maybe it is stupid. Some of my friends did say I am stupid for falling in love like this. Maybe..but this is what happen to me..
I had been in Singapore for about half year, and I experience something that is really different. But lately I am lost, I try to find myself back. I need an identity. I felt I am failure, because I am not capable and I am not smart and I am not pretty. Whatever people said about me, I take it as that is who I am but I am wrong. I am suppose to be who I think I want to be. I always look at those successful people and think if I can be successful like them,but at the same time, I won't deny anything said by them. By right, it is. But everyone has their own way to success. Yes, she is success but is her way really suitable for you? That is a good question hah?
I always blaming how my work is terrible and how unlucky I am. But I do have choice. Ya, maybe this is not the place for me,so why I need to insist as it is? She is success but probably her way is not what I am searching for. Searching in yourself is the key...
Ps: I created another blog called "Story Mode Life"
http://phoebememories.blogspot.com/
Phoebe
