Terrible feeling

2008, December 1, Sunny

Sunny day but my mood not as sunny....frustrated..sad..low self-esteem...
Today I get back my first assignment marks already!
I get a low mark....
No matter how I told myself that it is better than fail, I still cant stop to feel sad..
I really feel that I am a failure...
I came here so far, and now...I dono wat I can say...
I want to find sir, bt he also can't help me...I want to find fish, bt she also jz can comfort me...
My lecturer told me that I have many grammatical mistake....
I really feel so scare of English now...wat can I do?
I try so hard not to cry in the college and it is really a long day for me...
Today I also feel not so well and this make me more low motivation than other day...
There is no one can help me...I am jz here, alone, myself...with all the problems....
It is scary and helpless than I think...