25th July, 2009

Saturday night, but I am in my own room, doing nothing besides packing. Haiz..I really scare of packing now. After back to Haverfordwest for few days, tomorrow I am heading to Cardiff again. I already quit my job as waitress at Yeovil. Actually everything is fine, just this restaurant that belongs to 13 branch company like to delay employees salary. I already work there for 1 month but until now I haven't get my salary.

My manager and senior ask me to stay and they used a lot of good reasons to make me stay such as I can become manager of restaurant after half year work there, I also can work in upper management. Hmm..actually I know they just say it but that will be hard to happen because I am not China people, I am Malaysian, even though we are same, Chinese. Besides, that is not my ambitiona and target as well. From the first, I apply waitress job because they will provide accommodation and food, then I can save money. I never think it to become my career, it is just my part time job. They tell me that I am just degree holder and it is hard to get job outside there except I am Master holder.

Well, I just can't believe them without have a try, right? Besides, they want me to stay, of course they will say something that advance to them. After came to UK, I really grow up even just a little. At here, I have to manage everything by myself. Like this time, I have to find job by myself and then find ways to go to a place that is totally stranger to me. Even though I scare but I told myself I have to do this. There is no other way besides rely on myself.

However, I have to say that I am lucky to know friends that help me a lot. There are always people around to help me and guide me, like Janice and chef that came from same place with her. They are nice to me, especially Janice, we just like friends that know each other for long time already. Even though mom told me I have to be careful and can't trust people so easily, but I want to trust people. They nice to me because they feel I am true and I don't want to ruin this trust between us. However, if they are not good people as I think, never mind, I learn again from this mistake. Mistake make us grow up, right?

I believe that when I sincere to people, they can feel it and sincere to me as well. No matter how, I still will have preparation for one day, someone betray me. The most important to me is I don't want to treat people bad and betray my friend anymore. Previous experience teach me a lot, from my behavior to my mind thinking. Experience teach me how to behave infront coworkers, customers, and friends. Now, even I can't say I am a lovely person that make everyone like me, but at least, my job performance is still okay and people don't hate me. I got improve, right? I have to grow up and become independant, there is no one except myself to rely on. Gambateh, Pooh Pooh^^