Freezing....missing...

October 28, 2008, Die cold

Well, here I am again, blogging...
Wat can I do in this die cold day? Now it is 5 pm smtg bt outside there like 8 smtg.
Dark, mist and cold..my brain just shut off and I am shivering..
I want to do my assignment badly because the dateline is next week.
However, I am really too cold to do anything...
I am wearing gloves, long sleeves clothes plus sweater, long trousers and socks...
Bt I am still so cold..Am i dreaming now? I really hope so..
So tat I can wake up in the warmth of Malaysia..suddenly I miss M'sia warmth so much!
I am here, alone, in UK...it is like dreaming...
I never thought I can go private college to study, I never thought my dream go oversea to study can become true..everything in my mind just my dream...
But it cames true..ya..it cames true...untill I hard to believe and feel I am dreaming!
Almost everything I wish came true..what did I expect more? I dono...
"The Secret" is a book that told readers we can get what we want if we wish to get it!
It is really a good book..when you want something badly, the nature will bring it to u...
I always think I din't get anything I want..I will loss it if I wish to have..
Bt I never realise that I get almost everything I want...just I am too greedy to expect more..
I want study at college, there I go to Ipoh...
I wish to further study at oversea, here I came to UK...
Mom..she is the one that always help me to realize my dreams..she is really a wonderful mom..
I really miss her..I always wondering why she so believe I can make it and just let me make any decision of my life and let me go for it...
I still remember when I was in secondary school, I hate mom coz she dint believe me and forbid me to go out nite with friends and this and that...
I feel that she din't believe her daughter at all..don't she noe her daughter well?
Bt now, wat can I say? She want to teach me wat is good and bad..
When the time came, she will let me free to do what I want to do and believe me!
I always complain that my mom don't hv respond no matter what happen to me...
Maybe she wants me to take my own responsibility and settle by myself...
She always noe what to do! She is such a great mom! I realy love my mom!
That's why they say when you away from family, you will miss them so much!
Yup,here I am again...missing family like a child...ohh god...
You will never understand the cold if you are not at oversea...now I am totaly get it! huh....