Back to my home

15 Feb, 2010

Time flew but we just walking..gosh,how come time past so fast? Can't imagine I already back to Malaysia for 2 weeks, and now going into third week. I spent a week at Siem Reap, Cambodia, then stay few days at Ipoh. After back to my home for few days, it is Chinese New Year. After next week, I have to fly back to England again. I stay at UK for 1 and half years but just back here for 1 month. Haha...what to say? When I back here, I felt missing, not missing UK, but missing the life I had before at Malaysia.

Few days ago, when I tidy up my books, I found back my notes I made during my study at Ipoh. I just read through of them but suddenly I stopped at one page, stopped at a line of words...When you still cry when you repeat a story for many times, it means you still cannot put down your burden or forgot about it. This sentence
knock the door of my heart and memory. At the moment I arrive Malaysia, I can't denied that a lot of memory come back to me. Go to UK is a way of running away from the sadness and everything at here... and now when I back, everything come back again.

Friends, family, situation, and everything happened at the past, especially at Ipoh, left a deep impact in me. One week trip to Cambodia really a very happy trip to me (even it is very very hot and sunny). Sir, Fish and Carmen, they gave me a feel of be at home, be with your truly friends and family. All the time at UK, I don't feel any sadness, my life is just about me. How I am going to live my own way, how I can enjoy myself. I never have to worry anything about family or friends, because friends or supposely are collegues always changed according to my job. I knew many new friends but they are very temporary.

I am a person that like to run away from problem, that is why I run away to UK. Haha..I am a grown up girl but still like a little girl, do not want to face and settle problem. Holiday almost come to an end, I really will miss the time back to Malaysia. Next month when I back to UK, what am I going to do with my future? I don't have a clue actually after talk to sir. He is always a motivating person and this is always the advantage of him I saw from him. I like to be around him as he can let me feel motivation in my own life and career. Last week when I see him go back to KL, I felt sad. I know I will miss him, we have a bond, and I know we will always be friends that teach me a lot. Fish, I miss her immediately when my brother come to fetch me. Ohh gosh, I will miss them so much if I back to UK.