mist

Why I felt lonely when I was surrounded by my families and friends? It is a weird feeling as I do not felt like this when I stay at England. Even though I was far away from family and friends at England, it is like adventure to me. When I came back, I am not sure what is the feeling but it is a very complicated feeling. Lost direction in life, lonely, somehow emptiness in my heart and sadness. I always looking for some kind of success in my life, I eager for different life, interesting life in my life. I have some kind of connection with interest in human behavior, but the problem is I can't even figure out what kind of my behavior and thinking are.

I met again with a person that I admire his ability and he aroused my motivation and brain. Talking to him make me think a lot, my brain move and really think, compared to the years I spent at England, I like the moment with him. Somehow, he always make me have a bigger picture about life, a higher motivation and goal to achieve. If you ask me, do you regret choosing this friend and lost so many friends? I will answer, no. I always believe in destiny, especially with my friends. A friendship is somekind of chemicals, and successful friendship is a kind of diversification. Try it yourself, and you will know. Some people said he is a person that break people future,is it? I felt uneasy when I saw this post, even though I still felt like this now, but it is their choice. They are destined to hate him, while I was destined to understand the truth. Knowing him making a huge changes in my life, in which normal life is not normal anymore..

I believe even though my life now still in the mist, but I will find my way out one day. I am not sure what type of career I will be in future, but I believe I will have my own successful career, one day.. I believe I am not just a very normal girl, that live a normal life. I can't figure out my emotional live, I can't solve my family problem, however, growth and experience in life will help me to figure it out someday.