The Last Song will be a special movie to me,as I watch it alone,totally alone in the whole cinema room. What a special day to me! This feeling is really so good,like the whole room booked by me just for myself. Gosh,totally excited! The Last Song star by Miley Cyrus,a actress that I LOVE! She is really different in this movie,no more Hannah Montana. After movie, I went to Costa,having my lovely coffee (ermm,cappucino) but it is too bitter and I found that I can't stand of it,so I decided to buy tea. Okay,this is not the main point. Important is I enjoy for tea time,observing people passing by and seeing the sky and clouds. What a lovely evening.
After that, I went to White Rock Theatre for my Swan Lake Ballet performance. I don't know anything about ballet but I always envy dancers as I felt they are marvelous. Honestly, I don't really understand the whole thing but I know about Swan Lake movie,nice movie. But but but,I love their performance, they are really fabulous. How they stand on tip toe,how they hop and spin so many times,it really take a lot of hard work. I love everything today,what I go through and see and everything today, just LOVE it.
Even though my day started with terrible feeling and bad mood, but I ended it happily,satisfying feeling. Well,this work place and some biatch sucks,but life still have to go on. I have to wait for the timing to end up every sucks life at here and move on to my future.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
I am So done here!
I am really sleepy,really. But I am so so angry and frustrating,till I dono how to express my anger. I cry in my pillow and keep on asking myself,why I have to bully by people like that. When I pray guan shi yin pu sa,the more I cry,as it reminds me how is my life at my home,my country. I came here, far away from my home,just to achieve my dream,wish to explore outside world and have my own career before back to my home. But,it is,really so hard to do it. I want to be someone,not just Su Wei San from Ayer Tawar,Malaysia. I try my best in what I do now but why everything make it so hard?
Since I stay, I started to feel the pressure and also the problem that will keep on coming without stop. I tell myself that I have to overcome this as an adult,a person that want to success has to sacrifice but is this the correct path or way I am taking? I dono... Why I am so angry? Some people will say,gosh,it is just such a small matter and u just exaggerate it and make yourself irritating,give yourself a life! This dog that I mentioned before in my blog,just now my roommate that just bath called my name so loud to ask me go to bath as we let others bath first. I am off tomoro,so I agree that I shall let others (tat working)to bath first. This dog,it is off today and it got lot of time to bath even with its female dog before we finish work but it doesn't.
I wait from 11pm until almost 1am. Damn,what the hell this biatch is doing? I dono is the male or the female,go inside and bath for 20 minutes,damn! What I feel? At that moment,I am so so angry because they heard I haven't bath coz my roommate shout so loudly. They do it purposely. I really dono for what I let myself bullied like this! This useless small boss, like usual,so useless and everyday off to him,and hire all those useless rubbish back,just like him. What the hell is this working place? I can get a good job,I believe myself. Why I let myself to be treated like this,such a rubbish. I was promised a manager position but now,I am nothing but puppet and rubbish. I am so done with here,honestly.
Since I stay, I started to feel the pressure and also the problem that will keep on coming without stop. I tell myself that I have to overcome this as an adult,a person that want to success has to sacrifice but is this the correct path or way I am taking? I dono... Why I am so angry? Some people will say,gosh,it is just such a small matter and u just exaggerate it and make yourself irritating,give yourself a life! This dog that I mentioned before in my blog,just now my roommate that just bath called my name so loud to ask me go to bath as we let others bath first. I am off tomoro,so I agree that I shall let others (tat working)to bath first. This dog,it is off today and it got lot of time to bath even with its female dog before we finish work but it doesn't.
I wait from 11pm until almost 1am. Damn,what the hell this biatch is doing? I dono is the male or the female,go inside and bath for 20 minutes,damn! What I feel? At that moment,I am so so angry because they heard I haven't bath coz my roommate shout so loudly. They do it purposely. I really dono for what I let myself bullied like this! This useless small boss, like usual,so useless and everyday off to him,and hire all those useless rubbish back,just like him. What the hell is this working place? I can get a good job,I believe myself. Why I let myself to be treated like this,such a rubbish. I was promised a manager position but now,I am nothing but puppet and rubbish. I am so done with here,honestly.
Sunday, May 2, 2010
PUPPET LIFE
PUPPET! This word is a big word to me now. Am I a puppet now? I can't figure out my value to stay at this restaurant anymore. I got my own vision and I try to achieve it in this restaurant. Big boss asks me to stay and said this small boss won't stay here too long. Well,how long should I wait? It is not like I want to become manager at this restaurant and control everything,decide everything. I want to learn a proper management and customer service but I am totally can't learn it from this person.
Maybe I make the wrong decision when I choose to stay at this restaurant. Ya,serve me right,what a big mistake I made. How to say? I won't regret as this teach me how to make big decision next time. Small restaurant,management? Hmm..really very hard. They are talking about a small business, where as boss do not have vision to upgrade or develop it. Small and tradition and family business. Management= boss mind thinking? Gosh,such not my style. Next time,go franchise. Ya,small restaurant definitely out from my list of career.
Work in service field taught me one thing,customers always right and we will be the wrong one,even we are wrong except they are too over. Scolded by customers? Come on,small matter. So,please don't act like scolded by customer is such a big deal! Yeap,it is not our fault but we are in the same team,even we have to be scolded because others fault,we also have to take it. What about if next time someone get scolded because our fault? Use your brain to think (if you got one)! I don't want to be harsh but you are just so annoying when you tell everyone that you get scolded is such a big thing. Stop pouting and tell everyone how pity you are BECAUSE you are not!!!
Arghhh....work really stressing. I really need a long long damn long rest,a holiday,which I can escape from my stress and those reality life. Sometimes, I do love my job when customers leave but they left their happiness and satisfaction behind, in the restaurant,deep down in my heart. I am happy to make every customer happy and satisfy when they come in. Maybe this is what-so-called work satisfaction. The thing is is satisfaction more than stress and annoying or opposite? Is it worthing? When I decide to be serious in doing something, I am into it,seriously into it. Aihhh....life is complicated,who know what future will be! I can't even promise myself!
Maybe I make the wrong decision when I choose to stay at this restaurant. Ya,serve me right,what a big mistake I made. How to say? I won't regret as this teach me how to make big decision next time. Small restaurant,management? Hmm..really very hard. They are talking about a small business, where as boss do not have vision to upgrade or develop it. Small and tradition and family business. Management= boss mind thinking? Gosh,such not my style. Next time,go franchise. Ya,small restaurant definitely out from my list of career.
Work in service field taught me one thing,customers always right and we will be the wrong one,even we are wrong except they are too over. Scolded by customers? Come on,small matter. So,please don't act like scolded by customer is such a big deal! Yeap,it is not our fault but we are in the same team,even we have to be scolded because others fault,we also have to take it. What about if next time someone get scolded because our fault? Use your brain to think (if you got one)! I don't want to be harsh but you are just so annoying when you tell everyone that you get scolded is such a big thing. Stop pouting and tell everyone how pity you are BECAUSE you are not!!!
Arghhh....work really stressing. I really need a long long damn long rest,a holiday,which I can escape from my stress and those reality life. Sometimes, I do love my job when customers leave but they left their happiness and satisfaction behind, in the restaurant,deep down in my heart. I am happy to make every customer happy and satisfy when they come in. Maybe this is what-so-called work satisfaction. The thing is is satisfaction more than stress and annoying or opposite? Is it worthing? When I decide to be serious in doing something, I am into it,seriously into it. Aihhh....life is complicated,who know what future will be! I can't even promise myself!
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