Again, I need to blogging because I do not want to talk to anyone about this...reading 'I Heart New York' on the train as entertainment, but why it is about betrayal of a ten years boyfriend? Damn it...why everything keep on remind me of him while I try so hard to get over him? It hurts,it really does hurt. After I came back to Wales,every old memory came back to me as well,including him.
I don't know where the courage come from but I reply his message,which he asked me not to delete him and will be there for me if i ever need him. This hurts the most when he said he will be there for me no matter what happen. We never start but from all those months,we texting each other,trying to get to know him better and he make me to try to believe him and when my job not going as I want,he as well,doing something that make me totally collapse.
I really want to get over him but it appears to be not so easy...I am torturing myself now and I hate that side of me. I am not sure whether I am running away from the cruel reality again this time. Going back is not the perfect choice but I don't know what I can do anymore besides going back to people I know and love me...I am tired,really tired.
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